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Old May 31, 2013, 09:45 PM
Anonymous32734
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I'm getting ready to send this to a woman that I thought was more than a friend, but she told me that she couldn't love me in that way. I was okay w/ that, not happy, but dealing w/ it. But then a yesterday she sent me a text stating that I was only out to get something for myself.

I know that the story is a lot longer than the above, but I want to send the following to her, but I want others opinion first.

"You may completely hate me after you read this, but that is up to you. I hope you don't. But I do have to say it. I was devastated when you text me the other day saying that I wasn't a friend that I was only out to get something.

I'm so sorry you feel that way. I am sorry that you think that I'm not your friend. The only thing I ever ask for, and I never said it out loud, was that I wanted your love and respect. After you told me that you couldn't feel the same, I dealt w/ it. Am I happy w/ it? Maybe not, but I dealt w/ it. It never meant that I stopped loving or caring about you. I still don't want anything in return.

To say what you said in a text message really hurt me, but I can understand that you were in pain. B/c it feels as if you don't have enough respect for me to tell me face to face or even over the phone. Yes, I can also admit, I caused a little of it, but it did hurt what you said that you put me with them. To be lumped into a group of people that only want something from you hurts really bad, and will hurt. Everything I've done, I've done out of love. I've always been there for you, and will always be there for you for no other reason than love. I've never asked for anything nor have I ever expected anything.

Yes, I love you,but not just a romantic love. Because that has not been the only way I have felt about you. I love you as a friend, a companion, and as a person. Would I love it if you felt a romantic love toward me? Yes I would, but I know you don't. Signals got crossed. You even said so yourself.

I don't what to loss you. I don't want to loss you as a friend. After the last few years, I've grown attached to you. I care about you. I want you happy. That's all I ever wanted. Many times, I've put my feelings aside b/c I wanted you happy. But, when I'm honest about how I feel, you tell me I'm somebody that only wants one thing from you? I can tell you, that that one thing hasn't meant much to me since I broke my back, and can't really do that. I've learned that love is more than that. And it will always be more than that.

I do love you, and I will always love you. I want you happy, and I will do want I need to do to make you happy. I will be here for you when you need me, and I will help you when I can.

I need you to tell you this to get this off my chest before it eats me alive."
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