Its rough having love and hate for one person..... kinda like pingpong.. back and forth all the time... i know...

I am learning to love the person and hate the things they did.. and then too I have learned to accept that I had a bad father and a good one..

Your step dad probably did with you what was done with him... he didn't know any other way to raise up kids... not that its okay to do some of the things he did...

but if you could know how he was raised and how his parents treated him then it can help you understand his actions more.

I hope you find peace of mind... Faith