This last blowup just happened today. Big series of dramas. Perhaps you are still a bit numb from it all. You may or may not feel differently about her later, but it sounds like this last was her drama and you really did nothing wrong, rather the opposite. I'd be pretty mad at her, probably, but I can see being coldly numb for quite a while as well. Any number of possible reactions, but no need to judge yourself for any of them.