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Originally Posted by Asiablue
No one seems to understand why i'm so hypersensitive to change in therapy or why i get angry with her for seemingly illogical things. No one understands why i'm fighting her every step of the way or why i feel threatened by her care.
No one understand why i don't just walk in there every week and just trust her on face value. Why i don't just fight the terrifying alarm bells that tell me not to let her "in" to my inner world. Why bother keep turning up if i'm not just going to let her do her job?
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YES! I feel that way - that no one really gets my problems with my T. I learned early on not to talk to the closer people in my life about T. They think I'm crazy and it makes me wonder soooo am I then? Are there people who can go into therapy and have no major transference issues at all? They aren't worried what the T thinks or why he/she said that or did that? Do they seriously have no issues at all in the relational process of therapy? And if so, what does that type of therapy session look like??? Seriously. It's like a foreign language to me. So bizarre I can't really grasp what it would be like at this point.
Everything you wrote above, Asia, I am experiencing. I wish it could be easier and I guess maybe it is for some (?) but I figure we are each on a unique and individual life journey - this must be happening for a reason
