Hi my friend ~ Dearheart, you need therapy, and BADLY. If there is any way you can swing it, please do.

Talk with your doctor, and he can refer you to a good therapist. Therapy is the only way to go at this time. Believe me, it WILL work if you're open minded and WANT the help. I've been thru therapy for severe depression, and believe me it saved my life.

Please - talk to your doctor. You won't regret it. And let us know what happens, okay? God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee