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Throughout the entire time, I felt so uncomfortable, so scared, and vulnerable. I could understand most of what T was saying, but I didn't want to hear it, or talk about it. It's like to me, talking about it makes it real, and I guess I don't want it to be real. It's like when I hear myself talking about the different parts and my alters, it sounds so crazy to me. I'm afraid that by talking about it with my T, I'm going to be locked up, or T won't believe me and think I'm faking it.
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I can certainly understand you feeling uncomfortable, scared and vulnerable. If this isn't something you have talked about in any detail before, it's definitely new to you to be doing so. New things can be very unnerving until we have more experiences with it, then it's not so new anymore. There is also a question of trust here too. You don't quite know if you can trust your T or not or what views they have on DID.
Please know that you are definitely not crazy, no matter how it may sound to you when you talk about it. No one will lock you up for being DID. I get the feeling that if your T didn't believe you, then T wouldn't have discussed your "parts".
It sounds to me like this might be a very good opportunity for you to ask your T the questions you have. Write them down and take them with you so you don't draw a blank when you are in T's office. You deserve to have answers and if your T is a good one, they will give you their answers in a very calm and kind way.
Take it one step at a time.....things will be okay!
Take good care.