First of all, I disappeared because I have been doing well the last three weeks. For that I feel very selfish for not hanging in here and supporting the rest of you. I am sorry. I began thinking I didn't belong and maybe my mood swings were because of depression. I was reminded today or the burning awful feeling of not being able to escape a bad emotion and sinking deeper into it and then realized that something IS wrong with me, very wrong and I don't want to feel like this again but this is very much a part of me that I have to learn to deal with so I DO belong here and this time I will stay so that when I am feeling good I can offer more support.