Wanted to go out. Got ready. Didn't hear from friends. Started realizing I don't have many. felt lonely. Isolated. Wanted to move back to my home town. Cried hysterically all night. Wanted to disappear. Was planning an escape. My "sort of" boy friend texted me finally after ignoring me. I can talk to him about my feelings and only him. Every one else always thinks I am fine. After texting him I finally feel better. Not my eyes are burning and I feel ashamed that I allowed myself to become so devastated.