Went to doctor. Doctor gave depakote, working it up. @ 500mg at the moment.

Called him to up dose because I've been having crazy mood swings and i started thinkin the devil was in my closet... EVERY closet. Depressed suicidal paranoia stuff.. so he said he could raise it tomorrow, but I have to take a blood draw first.

Except i can't go to the blood draw appointment because i don't have the co-pay.

So I'm stuck on this 500mg which is nothing, (it was supposed to be a maintainace dose because I WAS stable.)..

And IDK what I'm going to do. I feel in control now but It all happens so quickly and I should just go to bed but i'll probably spend tonight up to no good.

What does one do? I told him i'd do it tomorrow(blood draw), but I can't go.