His office is closed on the weekend, not until monday. I need a shower, hygine has gone out the window. Going to try to sleep.

Bipolar never ceases to amaze me. It really is "like flipping a switch" I was fine.

Now I'm definitely not. i just really don't want to be hospitalized again. I need to get ahold of this.

And by up to no good I meant self-harm/medication, suicidal thinking.

I swear it always gets worse alone at night, because I don't have to act normal.

Shower tomorrow. Trying for sleep tonight.