I am going to have therapy soon but i almost feel like it is hopeless now because i am so mediocre. i have become a 34 year old male and i pretty much suck at everything and nobody likes me lol. That's just the state of play right now.

At this age i feel that i need things to change quickly because the man i am now will be the man i am for the rest of my life, and at the moment i am not happy with the man i am.

i feel i may be mentally retarded or something, or at least a learning disability. Also i am not terribly attractive. I also suck at sports. I am not funny either. And i do want a partner but i have no sex drive at the moment so i am not terribly motivated to find a woman.

this is just how i feel now, and my life is getting worse all the time.

I won't say exactly how i feel but you know.

anyway i will be in therapy soon and it will be intensive, that's really the only hope i have right now, even though i said earlier it was hopeless.

and maybe i need to change my antidepressants