#1 My business is just paying its own bills with not much left
#2 Im 55 and am finding it impossible to find even part time work
#3 Our house is in forclosure
#4 I feel my entire family blames me and I think I blame me
#5 My wife has stopped showing any effection towards me
#6 My grown children gave up thier homes to move in with us to help but unfortunatly it was to late. Now we have to find a place and I have 4 other people as well as 3 dogs to find a place to live.
#7 I take prescriptions for a back injury that keep me in a fog most of the time and makes it very hard to deal with everything and everyone in my house feels its my responsibility to do just that.

I love my family so very much no matter how they feel about me. I feel alienated by them and find myself not included in what ever they are doing. It kills me to hear my wife laughing in the back ground with my kids when I havnt been able to make her laugh in months and god knows I try. Thats all for now thanks.