my dad just left the house. he said hed be gone for some hours and i screamed and wept so hard. i didnt expect to cry but i expected to feel sad.

i cant take being physically alone anymore. this is the hundreth time ive been in the house for days straight but my dad leaves more since past month.

physical isolation is killing me. but im too afraid to leave. or maybe its social isolation or both? idk? i cant take social stuff. i hate the general population so much but no one will ever understand my hate til i take that a step that will cost lives.