I can't seem to trust T or a part of me doesn't trust her. I go in with all intentions to tell T what is going on, yet I get there and I freeze. It is like I get a mental block.

Yet other people who have proven they are not trustworthy, they come around again and again and I fall their excuses over and over and then get burned.

I am in a bit of a financial bind right now. Part of it is because 2 of my brothers and a friend owe me around $10K in total between the three of them. This is the first time I have added it all up.

These 3 people have promised over and over to pay me back, never do, yet I kept lending them more money. How crazy is that?? It is like a part of me can't say no to men who ask for help, the rescuer in me.

But now these same men, ignore my calls for help. When will I learn

And poor T who has never betrayed my trust, I can't open up to her. I have appt on Monday, have to try to figure out new meds, because current ones are way too expensive

Maybe no one is trustworthy anyway