wanting, are you seeing a doc? Drinking can hinder your recovery as it can depress you further (though initially it seems to make you feel better & less anxious) & if you are on meds it can lessen the effectiveness of them. I've been there with the drinking--drank to the point of having blackouts & my first child was 2 1/2 mos. early due to my drinking & smoking while pregnant.

People with mental illnesses often have an addiction to alcohol or drugs, as well. Talk to your doc about your drinking. You might have to go into some kind of program for that. When you get the right meds & are feeling better you will realize you don't need the alcohol. Best of luck to you.--Suzy