i don't fit in anywhere. not at church, not at work, not with other moms, not with other women in general, am excluded from anything with guys because apparently men and women can't be friends at all (how stupid)...i've tried finding an online group or something (i don't even fit in on PC, it seems) thinking maybe someone else will feel like i do (7 billion people, someone has to feel the way i do) but...honestly, if anyone did feel the way i do, they probably wouldn't post on this thread, because i probably wouldn't... and probably won't after this, not sure why i'm posting it, but i am going to hit that stupid submit button, because writing this out and then ctrl-A delete doesn't make it go away, it makes it sit in the back of my mind and keep festering...meanwhile, putting it out there so maybe someone will read it somehow makes me feel better, even though i really don't want anyone responding to it...

ugh. contradicting myself. sorry to those who read.