I cant totally relate to not fitting in. I felt "off" my entire life.

I guess all I can say is that you have to put yourself out there. many of the things you just posted are great examples of distortions, irrational thinking that we all do from time to time... you are assuming that people won't post, you are assuming that you aren't going to fit in. If you go in with that mindset, then yeah, the probability of you making friends is low. But if you go in, with a good positive mindset, and just be yourself, i think you will find that you get much farther...

if you ever wanna friend, i'm here. pm me any time... I don't bite!