I was psychotic for the first time in Feb. I am still recovering. I didn't know there was a recovery period until I read this post but I am having the same kind of problems with brain function. I forget how to get places, even what road turns past my apt.! I can only read non intellectual romance type books. I tried to read a non fiction book on King Arthur and gave up after three pages. I forget what day it is. Sometimes I fall asleep in the day and don't know if it's the next day or what. I changed my name because I don't feel like the old me anymore. Sometimes I still have little reminders of the hallucinations. I feel the hallway ripple under my feet. I see waves rolling in the sky. Everything is broken into particles in my vision. I hear a voice that no one else hears. I have not painted a picture sence the hospital nor have I written a poem. I was hospitalized again for a week in May and I dont even remember calling the crises line. But I was nuts again. I am perplexed that my Pdoc didn't tell me I would be recovering for awhile. He's with a free clinic and ya get what ya pay for.

Does this sound like what you guys went through. We're you extremely anxious, panicking, paranoid and shaking and tapping? I never thought I was someone else. But I was freaked out and didn't know why. Almost it seemed a physical thing.

Grateful that I can read, drive the car, somewhat keep up the house...but I still feel like a loser...like not good enough and weird. But I do believe we will all get better with time. I'm just afraid I'm going to relapse bc hubby and I are moving across the country in two weeks driving a rental truck and him with a neck injury and all the bs we went through with family since we moved here last fall....another cross country trip.

Sorry to ramble.