Dear T:
Today, I had to find a multitude of reasons. Because, with my status in life, children that I do love dearly, and perhaps a glimmer of hope at a better life, I needed to stop from thinking that way.
Knowing that one side effect.. Knowing that I cannot miss work.
I feel, online support groups(not this one) are destroying me, on the inside. One claimed, just a couple months ago, that I was creating mayhem. This other one, which, where am I supposed to go for my neurological support??---says, I am close to being considered, um...let's say..You don't Look like you have MS. (an expression people with my illness hear a lot, insert sound for look, and maybe you'll get what term is being used) These rejections, and I know I don't have a personality disorder, and am rather uni-polar, still hurt!
I am not treated like this in real life. I am kind and sweet and quiet and shy and I cannot believe I am going through this, through a blasted, bloody computer screen.
As if, life wasn't hard enough.
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