As some of you may know I have been having a hard time with depression lately. It's been going on for weeks now with no sign of relief. I talked with my psychiatrist over the phone and she doubled my anti depressant Prozac to 80mg. I am on other meds as well but she didn't adjust those.

My psych said that if I don't feel any better by Monday to call her again, but that seems so far away right now when I feel like this. All I want to do is sleep and be left alone by everyone around me. I have had some thoughts on how things would be better if I ended it all. My wife has mentioned that maybe I need to go into the hospital again. But who wants to go into the hospital? I know that it might be the best for me but I don't want to go.

I started my new dose of Prozac on Wednesday so maybe I can just wait it out. It's just so hard, I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I feel so alone in this but part of that is my fault because I am isolating myself from everyone. I want to get better I just don't know how to go about it.

I guess I just want to know that I am not alone and maybe some advice to on the hospital, I don't think it's even been a year since I was in last. Thanks for reading all of this sorry for the rant.