I'm only just starting on meds... and I made it clear to my GP that I don't want to be on them for forever. That terrifies me.

Also, I've done quite well for the last 10 years and have a lot of good coping strategies. I'm just currently having a hard time adjusting to my new life situation, and there's not too much I can do about that. So will likely keep on meds until I am fully adjusted and resigned to my environment.

(also, I know that next year's group of students is going to make it a really tough year, so it's best to get myself sorted out so that I can handle it... or I'd likely have a breakdown)