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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
I've been reading about depression and mental health stuff since I first got it 6 years ago. When the psychosis stuff started, I read more about that. I don't think it is necessarily a bad thing, though it sounds like it's lowering your productivity at work. Could you confine it to when you are on a break or at home?
I was interested in psychology before the depression struck, but my reading about MI massively increased when it got personal. It made me fancy a career in psychiatry, and then, when I realised that I couldn't face being a junior doctor and was starting to lose faith in psychiatry, made me switch to psychology to see if I could become a clinical psychologist. I could do health psychology with my background in medicine, but I'm more interested in MI.
I still have essays to write for Uni, but after I've finished I have a stack of reading about psychosis, recovery stories by Escher & Romme, differences in treatment in different countries, Elyn Saks' book etc. I'm looking forward to learning more about psychosis from a non-psychiatric perspective. I haven't moved beyond my illness, but I feel like the reading I have for the summer will help me explore other treatment options and ways of seeing myself that will help me one day move on from being 'sick', even if the symptoms don't completely disappear. And I think that may be the same for you - when you understand what happened to you and why, I think you will be able to 'move on'.
All the best,
*Willow*
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Well I can try to confine it but I'm given a lot of time to read about science at my job and that's when I'm doing it so its not affecting my short term but long term productivity. So it's hard to cut out because there are no consequences.
Maybe that's what is happening....the scientists and drs don't understand psychosis at all so there are no answers and that's what's getting to me. I actually considered changing careers to work on schizophrenia research but its just not my style...too many mouse brains or human interventions.
The problem is its almost like I'm addicted. I just google constantly or read pubmed....there is new stuff everyday and I've been having trouble sleeping so I get in a lot of reading time. I've probably read every first hand account and guide that amazon has to offer. I felt good last week because I was reading Nora Roberts but now I've started up on autism because I can relate to some of the social issues.
I think the problem is I want there to be a purpose or something to learn from this and there just isn't...
