my dad always told I wasnt good enough, plain and simple dad was a abusive alchoilic he would tell me all the time, i wasnt his kid, i wasnt good enough, i didnt clean, i didnt get good enough grades, he didnt love me because of this. This has effected everyone in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!My thinking, my confidence, my ability to move forward on anything, my ability to love someone and a reason to stay in a loveless marriage, a reason to be afraid to date a good guy,my bipolar thinking constantly. self esteem, self worth. The way I allow my ex to throw me in a great depression for years. i cant think about it, i have to move forward, I dont think im so bad, I have great awesome children i raise for 13 yrs by myself and they r good decent respectable people. So I cant be that horrbile if i raised them