Hi Cosmo ~ I'm sorry you're feeling so depressed. But there is NO REASON to say this way, my friend. You have options.

First, you need to talk with your medical doctor and make sure you're healthy. I assume you are, so then your doctor should refer you to a good therapist. You really need THERAPY for your depression. Depression is an ILLNESS that is recognized by the medical profession. So since it's an illness, it needs to be treated!! A therapist is the one to treat it.

If you cannot afford therapy, your medical doctor can STILL help you. Yes, I know that most people do not want to take medications, like an anti-depressant, but would you rather SUFFER like this for the rest of your life -- or until circumstances change, whenever that may be???? Talk with your doctor, my friend. You won't regret it.

God bless and please take care! Hugs, Lee