Bee,
I wish you were not on this journey. I'm almost two years into it. I think the suggestions people are making are good ones. You mentioned something about your kid's and telling them?? When my brother passed we ran into the same issue. If they are younger like kindergarten - 9th grade definitely utilize your childs school councilor if they are still in school. The councilor can give you age appropriate tip's on how to tell your children as well as grieve with your children. Also if you see a therapist check to see if they have any training on how to work with children. Another good resource is The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention and Awareness. The site talks about some things you can expect or might experience... www.afsp.org check it out and don't hesitate to contact your local chapter. My local chapter was a life saver to be honest... and I'm not one to really reach out for face to face help. They were there even when I was in that fog. If you need to chat hit me up with an e-mail. Every ones experience's are different even though at the same time they are similar.