I seem to have a lot of problems that come and go, but one main problem that is rather consistent is my lack of motivation or drive. I find it very difficult to do anything. Whether it is something big like going somewhere for the day or something small like carrying the dishes to the kitchen when I go upstairs. It is a miracle that I got the motivation to write this now...

Things like school and work are no problem for me because there is no level of changeability (?) for me. I don't know how to describe it. It is following a pattern and routine. I don't miss school or work as a fact, so I don't skip from lack of motivation. I don't skip appointments that are already made, but I have trouble getting the motivation to make the appointment. If I am already out for the day, I have no trouble wanting to do more things while I'm out. Anything else is fair game, it seems.

If I ever get motivation to do something, it seems to be at night time, when I need to go to bed or don't have time to do something. I can plan to do it the next day, but my motivation is gone by then. I can plan to do something fun, but decide to not do it at the last minute.

It just feels like my brain is fuzzy and sluggish. Recently, I am always tired. I go to bed late at night and wake up tired. I keep thinking that I need to sleep in one night until I am done sleeping, but I always stay up too late. It's not like I'm getting that little sleep. I almost never get less than 7 hours sleep (when I'm not in school ) and frequently get 8 or 9 hours sleep.

How do you get yourself motivated? How do you get your life back "on track?" I don't even know where to start...

Sorry for the rambling, and thanks for reading my long post!