I so agree with Leeds. There is help out there. I know. I have gotten it and it works for me. Like she says----why suffer?
I'm so sorry you are so sad. It's frustrating to see other people being happy and carefree when you are down. It just doesn't seem fair.
Please post here and let us give you some support. Most of us know exactly how you feel. Just rant away!!!!
I hope you feel better soon