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Jun 02, 2013, 05:25 AM
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Originally Posted by redbandit
I hope this doesnt come off as rude, I'm just curious. How do you know you're possessed?
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I know, because I am able to observe their personalities, behavior, and motives.
Not to mention that while I was being diagnosed, they have a hard time trying to figure out my so called "psychosis". They are not able to fit me with schizophrenia, because I do not have classical symptoms.
In schizophrenia other signs of having the mental illness other than "hallucinations" and "delusions": Lack of speech, catatonia, lack of motivation, inappropriate behavior (such as laughing at a funeral), and neglected hygiene.
I am able to function on my own by carrying out a conversation in full sentences and details, I move around constantly in order to perform a need (getting up to cook myself something to eat, going to the bathroom, and standing up and walking around for a bit to stretch my body out, from laying in bed the whole say, wasting away my time on the laptop.), it's not that I am unmotivated but I'm lazy and I tend to procrastinate all the time or I just don't feel like doing something (it is my choice. I don't do it for no reason), and my emotions are normal and appropriate for situations (getting angry when I fight with my mother, laughing at a joke, crying when I lost something dear to me such as moving away from friends or the death of someone that I knew, and being happy when I find something that keeps me busy and entertained)...and what do you know! I also happen to take care of myself (brushing my teeth every day, taking a shower every two to three days, which afterwards I brush out my hair and take care of it with "Fructis Sculpting Cream" for my natural curly hair, washing my hands after soiling them after taking care of something dirty, and putting lotion on my hands and arms once they get dry.)
It is also the way they conversate with me. Mariah, for example, is the head-Demon that talks to me all of the time. She is vulgar and fowl mouthed (often swearing at me and calling me a few names, but all she is trying to do is toughen me up. We both share a belief that as an adult, you should not take harsh things directed at you personally.), degrades me in everything I do (which makes it seem that she is bullying me, but she is actually criticizing me and trying to remind me and make me realize what I have done. She wants me to learn from my mistakes, and the reason why I am moody is due to me not being use to criticism. In fact, I'm new to it. As I grow older and mature, I will learn to live with it.), and commands me to commit things that would otherwise harm a victim or myself (people such as friends, family, acquaintances, rivals, enemies, and complete strangers. This is out of her hatred and jealousy of other humans taking advantage over me, when she claims to be the dominant one over everyone else.) Also advising me to not do certain actions that would cause me to fail and mess up and objective (talking and interrupting when no one else wants to pay attention to me, annoying a person based on my actions towards them, and making me avoid a certain person who will distract me, enabling my concentration on important tasks.).
It is also their intentions to do away with me. Mariah usually says things about one day "taking over my body in full control" and begging me to lend her permission (which she has asked me before when she first appeared around the year 2011, and I granted her power to take over me partially, offering to "help" me with troubles in life.), "making things happen to me in life" (such as punishing me, when I did "something" out of stupidity.), and also threatening to eventually hurt me (she says that she can do it at any time without me knowing about it.)
I figured out that this is not mental illness. It is way too complex to be placed in any category that would label me as "debilitated" and “deprived” of my overall mental health.
Last edited by Anonymous33150; Jun 02, 2013 at 05:49 AM.
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