Like others, I wrote. And like MKAC, I had difficulty remembering sessions because I was so dissociated. I tended to feel very sick physically during many sessions: faint, nauseated, stomach pains. My T was very comforting to me at those times. He was patient, he would get me a cold cloth, a glass of water, talk softly, try to help me relax.
I always thought that my reaction was a way of not facing what needed to come out, and it annoyed me. But I've wondered if it wasn't a way of testing my T with my vulnerability; that every time he treated me gently and patiently, it built a reservoir of trust that later allowed me to reveal more to him and to myself.

The process of revealing was always in fits and starts. I would easily become overwhelmed and dissociate. One of the most important things for me was my T's voice. I'm very attuned to voices. He has a beautiful tone to his voice, and he would modulate his voice to my emotion. That ability to be vocally attuned seemed to get under the radar of my defenses, and to create a space for me to voice thoughts I didn't think I could speak.