I feel almost exactly like Jeffro1972. The roller coaster is all i know...I think "normal" might bore me, although it may be a relief, too. My creative energy is at its highest on the upside and downside. I experience almost nothing when in the middle, and what I DO create lacks depth and insight. I don't know what I would do. I think my family and friends would probley want me to hit the button though since i am high maintenance emotionally. : )