I must preface this post with a bit of clarification:I feel odd posting on this forum because I'm not even sure what happened to me, if anything at all.
I don't want to offend anyone. My experience is surely not as bad as yours. So please, I'm not trying to play the martyr or the victim.

I was concerned for a friend who was behaving oddly, so, out of curiosity, I looked up "adult manifestations of childhood sexual abuse", something I had already stumbled upon when I found a fragmented memory in my mind. I was already kind of concerned about my uncles because I had some weird memories, but nothing explicit.

Another thing that made me curious was that I was (not severely) sexually assaulted a few years back and I'm still dealing with some of those things.

I found that not only did he match up 20/20 with the profile of one who was molested, but I did, too.
The list went on and on and I found myself saying, "eating disorders? Check. OCD like symptoms? Check. As a child, sophisticated level of sexual knowledge? Check. Recurring nightmares of abuse? Check. Fear of men? Check. Fear of sex? Check. Addictive personality? Check.
There were more and with each yes I was getting more anxious and uncomfortable.

So, I dug. I was digging and digging in my mind for childhood memories (very few of which do I seem to recollect)
Nothing was coming except for this odd memory of a beer barn and something spinning in my uncle's apartment (I already had this memory)

And then, everything turned. I remembered things when I least expected it, when I didn't want to, when I wasn't ready.
I fell asleep on a sectional couch not too long ago after a long night with friends. I didn't know it was going to be a co-Ed thing, but it was.
this is where things get weird
I woke up to a guy spooning me and that's when things started coming back. Immediately (in my mind) I was back in my uncles den, sitting.

He was drunk on the couch and had his arm outstretched towards me.
"Come here. Why won't you come here and spoon with me?"
I shook my head no.
"What's wrong? Is uncle mean? Is uncle stinky?"

So I came. We laid there for a while. He was rubbing my butt and legs. Then, playfully or sexually (I'm not sure), he told me to lay on his butt. Then he opened his legs and straddled my head with them. I couldn't get out of it. I don't know if this was "lewd and lascivious" or not.
This all positively, absolutely happened.

Other things came back which I'm not sure of.
I won't detail them, but I will say what might've happened:
Fondling of genitals
Digital penetration??
Dry humping

Nothing is clear. It's like a fog landed in my hippocampus and refuses to clear the way.

What made me really suspicious was the highly sexual dreams that I've had since I can remember.
I probably was 5 and I had this cartoonish recurrent dream of a man molesting me and smiling saying, "what's wrong? What wrong? What's wrong? What's wrong?"
I also knew way to much about sex before I actually knew about sex. I knew about cunnilingus, somehow. I hate saying this. I tried to play sexually (In a far too advanced way for a child) with my pets. Along with that, lining up with the profile of one who was molested has me really paranoid.

I feel like I'm paranoid and out of control. I don't trust myself. I don't know what to believe.

Am I crazy or do you think something happened to me?