This is all I know, as much as makes alot of you uncomfortable to think this, its a part of me, a part of who I am, its helped shape the woman I am today. Meds came very close to making me normal, and I probably would have died of boredom had I stayed medicated. Ok no, normalcy drove me a different kind of crazy, suddenly unrecognizable and lost... I would never choose it to go away in reality, I would choose "perfect" coping skills to manage it tho.