I would have to say unsure to Bipolar II. It took me a while to even know the difference between the two!

I enjoyed the experiences even though they were destructive to me. The HIGH of the mania was toxic and I experienced things and went places in my brain that were beyond this universe, and I would never take those memories away.

But I am unsure because now, my life is so mundane and boring. There is no more high. The meds make sure of that. I wish I could force myself to be more exciting and take more risks. I get very paranoid and scared of even going to a new place.