I was diagnosed in march 2013. as of may 27th my last time I saw my pdoc my bipolar disorder is still active and NOS.

It's been almost 2 months with no mania/hypomania. For about 1 month I was hypomanic/manic and the second month I was ultra-rapidcycling.

Last year I started getting randoms burst of euphoria, felt super depressed, suicidal or whatever.

I'm currently only on wellbutrin and I've been on it since april. 300mg.

I just feel stuck in depression. It's horrible, I've been on wellbutrin for 10 weeks and nothing. I haven't gotten elevated mood just depressed.

I kind of miss the euphoria.

does this mean I just have a depressive disorder now vs bipolar? Or am I always bipolar now?

I see a new pdoc within the next 2 weeks. I'm having suicidal thoughts a lot, last time I attempted suicide I was drunk, I'm staying away from alcohol so the bad thoughts don't take control again.