I am so sick and tired that everytime things start looking up and I seem to start heading in the right direction, I get another dam bomb dropped on me!!!! I am a single Mom on disability trying to raise a 13 year old son on $66.00 worth of food stamps and my disability check and now my trailer park wants to raise my rent another $45.00 a month!!! I mean where the f am I supposed to find that?? The richer get richer and the poorer get f'in poorer!!!!! I don't know how the hell I am supposed to do this!!!! it really has me freakin out!!! I am wanting to throw away 34 freakin days and all just so I can feel some freakin relief!!!! even if it is only for a second or 2!!! F it!!!!
I hate it because when things like this come up I really consider begging my soon to be ex to come back because at least then I wouold have his income also!!! I can just make myself deal with more of his porno crap and give it to him when he wants it because at least that way I know I can pay for a roof over my sons head and food in his belly!!! I have got to get these stupid ideas out of my head because I almost killed myself a year ago thinking I had not way out!!!