Hi Clara22....I am so sorry you're having such struggles, sounds like you've got a tremendous amount of things to deal with. I pray that some comfort comes to you as soon as possible. When you mentioned the possibility of entering a psychiatric facility I wondered if you are under the care of a therapist ~and or psychiatrist, as this might be necessary if it should come to this. In the meantime, sending warm thoughts and a big hug

~whimsy