Growing up my mother would never allow the family to be anything but happy. It didn't matter if we were sad mad or hurt. We always had to look like the perfect southern family. And over the years its stuck with me. My therapist keeps telling me I'm allowed to have other emotions but when I do show those other emotions I feel like I'm being disrespectful and end up apologizing. And I am getting better at it but I've notice the one person I never show my real emotions to is my husband. I always tell him everything's alright and put a smile on my face when he's around. I want to be honest with him but I'm scared. What is wrong with me? He's the number one person I should trust but I guess I just want him to be happy whether I am or not. Does anybody else do this?