I'm not sure if this is triggering... But better safe that sorry...

<<if easily triggered stop reading here>>



I know it's been a while since I last posted. But I'm back. Sorta... Anyway.
My friend is a cutter and we made a deal that if I say clean of all my bad habits then she won't cut. I've stayed pretty clean but she is going through a hard time and she is giving up. She is telling me she is done and that she can't stop thinking suicidal thoughts. Of course I don't want her to do anything. But I don't know what to do.

I've told he r,on about this, but she doesn't seem to care. So it's kinda up to me. And I'm just barely holding ME up. I can't hold my friend together too. I let her vent to me because it makes her feel better. But for me it's like holding my breathe while someone rips off billions of band aids. If that makes since??

Even though I know venting helps her, I just stare at my wrist and can't stop those thoughts. I haven't hurt myself is a while and I don't want to start thinking about that again. But My Friend is FALLING APART and needs me. But I don't know how to help her.

Any advice would help!! Anything at all...

I just don't want her to do anything she can't take back... But I also want to stay clean... But it looks like it's one or the other. Not both

Thank you for reading