I recently returned to taking Prozac after going off it for 10 years. I survived during that time, and added psychodynamic psychotherapy and it's invaluable, but I could not get to where I was when I was on meds. I am doing much better, from a combination of the meds + therapy, and I'm really thankful.

Yet... I feel like a failure because I had to add the meds to get to the level of improvement I wanted and now have. I wanted to do this without meds because I believe that healing through therapy is permanent and lifelong.

I hesitated to go back on the Prozac, but I was curious about how it might go. That it has been positive is great, and I'll stay with it. For now .

I worried that being on an AD would interfere with my therapy, but I am finding that it isn't interfering at all. I think it's helping. So... win/win, right? Except that, still, I do feel like I 'cheated' or something. I am sure this is around my issues of not wanting to acknowledge that I need help and my anxieties around asking for help (at work, in life, etc).

I will keep gaining insights and enjoy feeling better. I just can't stop resenting that little pill..........