Some of you know my Mom passed away Saturday. Ive been processing the grief and have been feeling like Im at a pretty good place with it, possibly too good for some people.

Yesterday my older sister called me arrogant because I somewhat sternly requested that my younger sister provide me with the info about the funeral so I could inform my work about whats going on. I had chosen to skip the family meeting at the mortuary because I didnt feel I had any input to give and was willing to be fine with whatever decision the family made about what to do with moms remains. That was probably a mistake on my part, it seems to have sent a signal to the rest of the family that I dont care at all about anything, and when I called to find out what was decided my voice message went un-returned for several hours. I couldnt help but feel left out and maybe I brought it on myself but its still how I felt.

When I finally got hold of my younger sister I asked if she had gotten my earlier message and she said no. I then went on to ask if she had any plans of informing me about what was going on at some point. She's the POA and I feel its her responsibility to keep the rest of us advised.

She's still young and I can forgive her not returning my call. She has a lot on her mind and most likely feels really overwhelmed. Emotions are raw on all sides. Instead of giving me the info she told me I should have called to get the info (overlooking that I did call) and then hung up on me. I apologized to her for my tone of voice via text but havent heard from her.

Then I went to my older sister and told her one of them needed to let me know what was going on. Thats when she said I was arrogant. So I fired back at her something about eagerly going through moms things already.

Ive since apologized to both, it was wrong of me to snap at my sister and the only excuse I have is feeling the way I feel about all this. Ive heard from neither of them and I need to tell my work something. It feels like Im being mistreated but I know we're all only human and their feelings might be raw too. Actually, my older sister and mom were never really close. I dont know what more to do to fix things and I feel like Im going to miss the funeral and lose my remaining family over this

Thanks for reading and any replies or opinions are appreciated.