Ok let me give you some background on me.

Haven't had a job for five years. Don't want one- like a regular one by that i mean, dealing with money.

Been in hospital twice this year, just got out a few days ago.

I just don't know what to do with myself!

Now is the right time to do something, yet it is now Tuesday and i had Monday to start making some plans.

It's not like i don't have plans, i do, just now that it is time to act on them i get stuck.

I like chatting on the internet, i do that with no problem.

I feel like i am searching for something, yet i don't know what it is, or how i could help myself find it.

If i think about what i would LIKE to do, well it's just to hang out with friends really, i don't even know.

Like i have posted before, i want a boyfriend, but this is becoming too big a priority (and i know that you will all jump in and tell me to make it less) but in some ways i feel like i need that, need some intimacy before i can move on and do regular things!

I really feel like i am not doing anything because i am doing the wrong thing, yet what is the right thing?

Any advice?

Thanks...

xx