Your story is so similar to mine. I went about my day to day life being very good at what I was doing, making sure all the workers were taken care of, loving my kids, socializing, etc. But over time it all started to feel pointless and my emotions became lost to me. Nothing seemed to matter and the ings that once gave me joy no longer did. I didn't know what was happening and I started pushing everyone away. Stopped talking to my friends and, worst of all, my wife.

She tried to make things work and I would, too for short periods of time. Then I would start feeling unworthy and lost and start avoiding her- for long periods of time, causing her to suffer greatly. I didn't figure out what was happening to me until it was too late... I lost my wife and my family was broken. I pushed away my friends and my sisters. On and on...

Please take my advice and seek help! Talk to your wife. Tell your doctor what's happening and talk to a therapist. There is good help available and utilizing it can help you to understand what's happening to you and get you healthy again.

Take Care and best of luck.