I don't have much contact with any of my alters, really. A couple of years ago I was very co-conscious with a protector alter of mine, and at that time things were very bad. Now things are better but I don't feel that I have as much communication as before. Sometimes I feel like there's someone co-conscious though (like someone is with me), or that I'm not really there (I have control over the body and mind but I feel disconnected, if that makes sense?).

Sometimes I feel the feelings of other alters, a while ago something bad happened and then I felt like it was a chaos inside. Some alters were very scared and I know that there's one protector alter that is very scared of trusting and being dependent etc.

I don't have much more communication than that. I've never switched (as I know of), but I think that I've lost time in the past when things were bad (I suspect that things has been worse than what I know of). I have a journal for us to write in, and if I feel like an alter is feeling something/wants to get anything out, I write it down there. It's pretty empty though and it's mostly my feelings that I write down...

I don't want to push anyone and it's important to me that they feel like they can do things when they feel comfortable doing it, but I can feel frustrated sometimes, that I don't have that much communication with my alters. After all I've been aware of them (at least one of my protector alters) for about three years now. I don't know if I'd say that I "hear" my alters (other than what I've already described, if that could be considered hearing them?). I don't know how to get a better communication since we're not switching (if we did they could have written in our journal).

I appreciate any replies, I need help with this.