Thanks you guys. I'm making myself a cup of peppermint tea and trying to just focus on doing what I need to do so that I will never be in this position ever again. Wanting to SI or sink back down into the darkness because I am so ashamed does nothing but make matters worse. ..and continue to let him have power over me...not the way I want to live anymore.

As for looking at jewelry making catalog...that is great fun! I hope you make yourself something pretty.