Well I gave in to the strain and pressure of whats being going wrong in my life and I cut my self for the first time in 5 months. With everything going on between my neighbors, having a nodule on my thyroid, not being to find a job, etc. I just gave up tonight and bought a razor and cut up the palm of my hand. My husband came home and saw my bloody hand and I didn't even care. He felt really bad and helped me wash off the cuts and put a band aid on it it wasn't that deep. Oddly, I feel better now its like I had to hit bottom and now I feel stronger and that I can begin again. I am not going to beat myself up about the cutting I have done really well for a long time and this time I just gave in to the stress next time I will fight harder. Hoping for better days!

Jenn