VACATION....aarrrggghhhh!~4 weeks abroad.
He leaves at least twice a year for parts unknown.
He knows how it upsets me, and does what he can to
support me during his absence. I'm going to be seeing
his partner until he returns.

I still feel sad, lonely, unsafe, lost and a host of other feelings.
I know he will send me an email at some point. He always makes
contact once or twice during his trips. I have some sessions recorded
so I can listen to his voice. That helps.

I just turn into this little girl feeling left on the curb. I need to put my
big girl pants on now.....I hate it when he leaves, just hate it.
I go through a period of grief right when he departs, then go through a
period of resentment when he returns. I'm going to try to work on myself
in his absence, but I often get very depressed. I wish I could reduce my dependency on him. I guess at some point it will happen naturally. It still hurts therapist!