I'm sorry, WePow. To me, what you described feels like the numbing that I typically experience as part of depression. My depression is not sad or crying or even the vegetative sort, but rather a complete absence of feeling anything at all. When I feel like I don't give a red rat's @ss about anything, especially the people and activities I know I love, then I know I'm in trouble. This is also a PTSD symptom (numbing), so it could be a kind of emotional reliving of trauma.