You could go to the ER or a crisis/ mental health center. If you call 911 they will most likely send an ambulance to take you to the doctor. Have you told your family? Maybe you can have a friend or someone go with you.

Things will be better for you if you get help before rather than after you do something implulsive. I have tried to end my life twice and it felt like the right thing at the time and the only way, but I regreted later. I would have missed out on some good times.

Your not alone and there are other people out there that feel or have felt like you do, myself included. That is why the stress centers and places like that exist. They give people a safe place so they can get better and they don't hvae to worry about trying to keep things together. I was in a hospital once and I felt safe there. It gave me a chance to stabalize and it showed my family how bad things really were for me.