Hi MUE. I think I'll apply as it takes several weeks to get an interview then several more weeks to start the job so if I do pass my exams i can just decline the position IF i am lucky to be offered it.

MUE have you tried meditation with xanax. I'm starting mindfulness meditation just to try it out. As you know anxiety reaches a certain level and all hell breaks loose in your body and mind then nothing seems to help.
Remember to breathe.