I love my parents and have always been very close to them, but lately I just can't seem to stand being at home with them. They don't know I'm depressed, and some of the things they say and do (Especially my dad) just make me feel worse than I already do.

When I'm home from school for the summer, I spend a lot of time in the evenings alone in my room. That's pretty much what I've always done, even in high school. But my dad gives me so much grief for it these days. He complains about how I don't like him anymore, but then if I DO spend more time downstairs with him he just asks me why I haven't gone up to my room yet. Also, I always come downstairs every few hours just to get something to drink and to say hi, and half the time when I do that he won't even acknowledge my existence at all (Won't respond; won't even look at me even if I stand right next to him.) I just don't know what I can do. It's not even like we'd be spending quality time together, I'd just be watching him play video games or watch TV with him with very little conversation between us. My mom pretty much just goes along with whatever he says and does. It makes me feel awful because I just can't seem to win no matter what I do .

The thing is, I suspect my dad might suffer from depression as well, or at least something similar. It seems like he's always gotten in moods like this from time to time, but since I've started college it seems to happen a lot more often. I just don't know what I can do. I'm really introverted so I NEED the time to myself.

In addition, I want to move further away from home after graduating college. The school I go to right now is about 30-45 minutes away (Though I still live on campus during the school year), and I'd like to get somewhere several hours away. I haven't told my parents about my desire to do that yet. I still have a couple more years until I graduate, so I don't HAVE to tell them just yet, but I don't know how they'll take the news. The other day my mom was talking to me about how she and my dad might move back to the city we lived in before we moved here, which is only about 2-2 1/2 hours away. She started crying and was really upset at the thought of being that far away from me, among other things. I just can't imagine how upset she'd be at the thought of me moving several hours away if the thought of being only two hours away upset her that much...